today is not how i would like it to be. more snow is falling and i am stuck in a ten hour shift at work. and it's not that i just wish to be home, but i wish to be in an entirely different time and place. ultimate discontentment (not to mention the impossible kind). i am longing for the past, a summer of friendship and adventure and laughter. warmth and little responsiblity are calling my name. although i am utterly in love with my beau, i have lost touch with a handful of friends along the way (especially those of the male gender). some of these friends i loved so dearly are nearly impossible to keep in touch with, at least in a real way. we've all changed. some for the better, some for the absolute worse. i am tired and weary. today, my soul wants to give up the fight for happiness and contentment. i am so very close to letting this heaviness take over my being. funny how just yesterday i was light hearted and full of joy. valentines day was heaven. i am so thoroughly blessed to have an amazing man in my life. i must remember to not take this for granted. i must remember that seasons are necessary in life, some are green and blooming and warm, others are cold and damp, however beautiful if you have the right eyes. remember, ashley, find the beauty in the small things. find beauty in the glistening flakes falling quietly from heaven. find it in a smile and a warm drink. find it in the hope for things to come. find it in the Savior that holds me close.
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